The Crash

So, this last Tuesday was a big bound for my career as a composer. It was the first time I have ever had a group of people perform a piece by me. Up until now, I have only heard very poor MIDI prototypes of my works, which is quite frustrating at best. However, hearing the lustful, organic sound of real instrumentalists playing music that I have written is awe inspiring.
Up until now, composition has not felt so real. Yes, prior to hearing this performance, I wanted to compose for a living, but I wasn't quite in the right mindset yet. I still thought of composition as a pastime, even though I am majoring in it at the conservatory. However, after hearing someone play "The Crash," composing has truly become much more than a pastime. Composition is really what I want to do for a living. Not until I heard Tuesday's performance did I truly realize how much I love to compose music.
The thought of these other artists putting time into learning a piece I wrote, and making it into a good concert makes me feel happier about music than I have ever felt. Furthermore, the fact that so many other fellow composers appreciated my work, and congratulated me after the concert was probably the most appreciation I have ever received for my music. This experience was invaluable. The performance of "The Crash," or rather, the great feelings of accomplishment and fulfillment I got from said performance have inspired me to put more time into composition. I need to put more time into reading the books of other composers. I need to put more time into studying the music of other composers, so that I can further my technique. Most importantly, I need to put more time into focusing on finding my own unique sound. It's time to buckle down. The music world is tough, but it had better watch out, because I plan on conquering it.